Yes, you may have lost it there for a bit.
It may have felt like hell for a while but your ego didn't shatter.
You are OK.
You are emotionally stable again and ready for the future.
The future is uncertain but it's this uncertainty that brings magic and vibrancy to living.
How boring life would be if we all acted the same-- had the same passions or could predict the future.
There are no guarantees for any of us.
We all have the same 24 hours per day; can't have a more level playing field than that, can we? It is what we do with the time we have that matters.
Author Richard Bach has a great take on time and our contribution to the world.
He said "Here is a test to find whether your mission on Earth is finished-- If you're alive, it isn't.
" Letting go of someone you love will free your time to do other things.
If this stings a bit, consider (constructively) what your ex did not like to do that you really enjoyed.
Dancing? Float trips? Gourmet cooking? Well, there is absolutely nothing standing in your way now.
To help me quit smoking, I focused on the things I would gain from becoming a non-smoker: fresher smelling hair and clothes, healthier lungs, clothing without the small holes that came from flying sparks and the massive amount of money I was saving.
This point of view emphasized the positives of change.
Had I embraced the negative, I might still be a slave to nicotine.
You are now free to use your time as you wish, see the people you want to see, spend money on recreation or hobbies of your choice.
The point is this: rejoice in who you are and the gifts you bring to the world.
You may feel love for your ex for a long time but you need to let go to regain your balance.